Just when you think things can’t get any worse, they can. This year has been a struggle for many reasons to say the least. I feel I have been tested in every area of life to see how much I can withstand without succumbing to my past vices. I don’t want to go into details but let’s just say it’s been hard.
Back in May I was almost to the point where my original EP was about to be finished, but God had a different plan in mind. I really wanted to get these songs finished so I could start working on some new lessons that would come out in August of this year.
Well, that plan when right out the window when I noticed a numbness in my 3rd and 4th fingers as well as part of my palm that wouldn’t go away. This came from leaning my elbow on my desk while working on the computer. It’s not really painful, but it’s hard to play when you can’t feel half your hand!
Anyway, all guitar playing and typing which is what I do for a living would come to a complete halt. When times are so hard and one of the good things I like to do in times of pain which is playing guitar and making videos has been taken away as well, it becomes very frustrating to say the least.
Now I’m left with just maintaining the site and doing some web tweaks that don’t require a lot of typing. All that has really helped the site but it’s not the kind of work that people are interested in such as new lessons, tone videos, and blog posts.
During this time every aspect of Learning Guitar now has declined. I’m not saying things are that bad, but every metric has fallen from where I was at 3 months ago. That’s pretty frustrating as well when you can’t do much about it.
In Ecclesiastes this verse stands out to me more than any.
There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heavens:
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
a time for war and a time for peace.
This has been my time of rest and transformation. This year I’ve undergone a lot of healing from my past and it’s not easy to just continue on as normal after such a year of facing the greatest fears from your past.
I also ended a 2+ year relationship I was in due to her inability to move out of the past. If you keep looking back, you’ll never see what’s ahead of you.
I know this has nothing to do with guitar lessons, but this site is different from many. The lessons on my site are only from myself and only teach blues playing. I like to talk about who I am as a person every now and again so you guys can get an idea of what I stand for as well as build some trust from you guys.
My story is not unique, everyone has a season of hardship and pain. The key I believe is recognizing that YOU CAN move out of this with the right attitude and perseverance. It may not be easy and there will probably be bumps in the road. I also recognize that there are many who have it much worse than me but that does not minimize how my problems feel to myself.
Right now I feel pretty good about the ideas and plans I have for the future in many different areas in life including Learning Guitar now. My hand feels much better and while there is still some numbness, it is about 90% gone.
My EP will soon have drums and keys put on it from two friends of Taylor’s (the singer) who live in Nashville. They’re on tour right now but will be back in August to put down some tracks for it.
Also, during this time I’ve done a lot of thinking about new lessons and guitar tones I want for the EP. I’ve been on a guitar hunt for a couple months looking for a specific tone and feel of a guitar. Let’s just say I’ve found the guitar that feels like an extension of my arm. It is THE guitar for me to play non-slide with.
With August almost here, I feel a new sense of direction unlike I had before the injury. I have many new ideas and plans for my future which start NOW. Today I sit here writing this little story of mine wondering if I should really post this or not, but I believe it could be helpful to others who are feeling a little blue today.
During times of struggle I realize that lessons are here to be learned. If these lessons can be found during hard times you can gain much insight into what lies ahead.
It could be said that without hard times, we won’t progress in life any further. A stalemate. It is in these times that fuel the fire to create or be only what we uniquely have inside of us.
@ClintMCreative posted this on twitter yesterday which I think sums up my situation and everyone else’s as well. Below is the quote.
Thanks for reading.
John W. Tuggle
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